My Perfect Birth (Preston’s Birth Story)

A good friend of mine recently had her baby! I loved reading this! Hope you will too 🙂

A Cow in the Ocean

The last picture that I took before Preston was born. This is with my niece Aliyah on her birthday. We had hoped that Preston would be a birthday present for her. The last picture that I took before Preston was born. This is with my niece Aliyah on her birthday. We had hoped that Preston would be a birthday present for her.

I’ve been dreaming of writing this post for what seems like forever and now that the time has come I don’t hardly know what to say. Birth rocked my world and changed me forever. It was nothing like what I imagined, it was nothing that I could have ever prepared for, it was truly nothing short of a miracle. One big giant miracle.

Preston was due on the 25th of April. So when I started having some pretty good surges during the first week of march we were concerned. I was watching tv with my mom when I felt the first one. It felt exactly like what I had imagined and prepared for. It started as a crampy feeling…

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Why I Want to be a Midwife

When I was 7 1/2 years old.  I woke up one morning to a very distinct scent (and one of my favorites) of Hexol.  I had a new baby neice!

When I was 8 years old.  My sister drank castor oil straight from the bottle….a little while later I had a new baby neice!

A few months later I had turned nine.  I woke up to the sound of familiar womens voices, a hallway full of coats, boots and purses,  and… you guessed it!  another baby neice was born!

A few years later, I was 12, I was gone but I new a baby was on the way soon!  when I walked in the house… I had a baby nephew this time!

6 months later.  I was helping my mom sterilize blankets and clothes and boil water…hexol scent floating around… I was listening at the door with my other sisters… then we were invited in… I was a little scared…but I watched another neice enter the world!  this neice was the first and only time I have seen a baby be born.(in real life)  It was unforgettable!

At the time of these births I had no idea i wanted to be a midwive.  I do think they helped the decision once I thought back on them though 🙂   It was only about 7 months ago that I made the decision.

I don’t know if I have already said this in another post, but I have NEVER had regular menstrual cycles!  I realize now that I probably should have looked into doing something about it then…  but I have no regrets. I firmly believe in “seasons of life”, “timing”,  “everything happens for a reason”  all of those types of sayings.  I was not my season, or time, to learn the things I have in the past four years!    so yah…. never been “normal”.  Marriage comes around and I want babies… so I have spend the last four years.  learning, praying, studying, researching, asking, watching  etc etc … about womens health. Specifically reproductive and endocrine systems.  One day(in September of 2013) I received an email from one of my best friends, about a conference thing that had classes on these particular subjects. and it also had classes and information about midwifery.  That was the “lightbulb” I guess you could say.  I wasn’t able to attend the conference. I talked to my husband, told him what I wanted to do. And I even wrote down my goals and desires.  This is what I wrote: 

My main goal is to be a natural and holistic “health care provider” (I don’t really know what the official title would be) for women.  Using whole foods, herbs, and natural sources (essential oils, tinctures etc). Also “alternative” healing such as chakra healing and other emotional clearing processes (a huge part of what I have learned is the emotional link to physical problems).  I want to be able to come to me with any problem, concern or issue they may have.  PCOS, fibroids, fibromyalgia, endometriosis, etc.  I want to be trained in areas that may help these women: massage, reflexology, acupressure, etc. and also a better knowledge of the herbs, salves, tinctures, essential oils.  I also want to be trained in things regarding pregnancy:  hypnobabies, doula, pregnancy nutrition and health, and mainly midwifery. and also postpartum care for mothers and babies. I feel like because of the things I have learned about myself through my own women’s health journey I can help and serve other women.

I do want to give a big disclaimer here and say this: I want to be qualified and trusted in all these areas. I don’t want nor expect it to be something like “oh I have this problem so this will help you!”  or “you need this because it helped me” . to me that is wrong 🙂

I have always felt like I would have my babies at home.  I was born a woman.  Woman have a great power and strength when it comes to having babies!  I have heard stories of old indian and eskimo women just stopping and having their babies and then get on with their lives!  (those were word of mouth stories so you don’t have to trust me on that).  In my studies of anatomy and women…its just a beautiful thing. I just cannot even say how amazing I think it is!

I feel like I have jumped around in this post,  lets try finishing it up this way:

I want to be a midwife so I can serve, encourage, bless and help women.  I want to be a midwife because I want to give women the choices they may not know they have.  I want to be a midwife because I am passionate about health, motherhood, babies and womens choices, and the power (physical, emotional, spiritual) of women!!  I want to be a midwive because if I am helping a women with fertility issues and getting pregnant I would love to have the honor if she chose me to continue the journey to the birth of her baby.  I want to be the kind of midwife I want for myself.  my clients/patients? they will be my friend…forever!   I suppose if you don’t want that type of relationship than don’t choose me as your midwife.  here is my history for those statements.  I HATE being a number!  get in and get done.. and no real interest in the person or problem they have.  I connect with people and talk and laugh and cry with people!  I want a friend!  I will be a friend!  I will love you and those babies till forever!  I wont be a number counter, (is that even a thing?)  you get the idea right?

I want to be a midwife because nothing is more special and beautiful and perfect than birth and a bond of mother and child!


Behold: the two absolutely worst arguments against homeschooling

I suppose you could call me biased because I was homeschooled…But I seriously LOVE this!

The Matt Walsh Blog


Here’s the email I received last week. I was saving it for today, as I’ll be speaking at a homeschool conference tomorrow:

*The subject line of this email was: “Not all public school teachers are the devil.”* 

Hi Matt,

I’ve been a pretty decent fan of some of your writings, and while I don’t always agree I find that you sometimes have an entertaining way of presenting your opinion. Anyway, all due respect, I find myself having a hard time continuing to follow you now that I’ve gone back and read through your views on education.

It doesn’t so much bother me that you seem to be PROUD of your lack of a college education. You seem to be of the lucky few smart enough to get away with having no real education to speak of (congratulations). What I can’t reconcile myself with is your vitriol and hatred for public…

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Someone FINALLY told me WHY!

I will be the first to admit that I thought the “gluten free” thing was a fad, or a fake thing! I couldn’t understand why if we had been eating wheat for hundreds of years why all of the sudden it was the devil! I thought it was dumb, and just kind of disregarded it. Time went by and I learned some things and I still was hesitant but it made me feel better that “wheat” or “gluten” wasn’t the actual problem but it was the Genetic modifications that were bad the GMO’s (another hot topic!) So I was like “ok that makes sense”! Because hundreds of years ago there was no such thing as GMO and so it was not as harmful! Oh I forgot to mention I would hear things like “You have to go off gluten if you want to get pregnant” or “your not getting pregnant because of gluten”… I don’t mind peoples advice and I know they want to see me have children. (and I am so grateful for the love and support). I had gone off of gluten (not 100% strict but 99%, I wouldn’t check in things like soups and stuff where gluten and flours are hiding, but I eliminated Most gluten), for a few months and I actually noticed a difference in things. I also had heard and seen lots of good things and successes with it… so, I don’t know why I stopped… just stubborn I guess!
SO… last week I had a Live Blood Analysis, from a friend of mine. The blood analysis is so cool! Its amazing what you can tell by a drop of blood! So while looking at my blood she asks if I had made any diet changes recently. I told her that I had not eaten sugar since June, I had been trying to go off gluten but I wasn’t completely, and I told her I was trying to just be healthier over all, you know… get my greens and veggies etc…and she strongly suggested to go all the way gluten free! — I told my mom that and she says “I wont say ‘I told you so'” (hehehehe) she was one of the ones suggesting it. — 🙂 My friend went on to explain what celiac disease is! this is what I understand, correct me if I am wrong 🙂
In your intestine there are little hairs…what you all know from High School Biology is cilia! 🙂 the cilia take the broken down food and absorb into your body the nutrients from your food. She then explained that gluten isn’t the only culprit! It is the biggest culprit because of GMO’s (^ see I was right!) But nightshade veggies and other grains can also cause a problem. The gluten or other things go and stick to the cilia and block it from absorbing nutrients, and it absorbs whole particles of food…then your body says “NO that’s not right!” and you get the allergic reaction!
She also went on about my fertility issues and the link with that! Stresses whether physical (the gluten “allergy”) or emotional, put your body into fight or flight mode. Your adrenals are what controls that. when your body is in fight or flight trying to keep you alive, it is using all your progesterone and turning it into cortisol…therefore your hormones are way out of wack! the more you try to give your body progesterone the more your adrenals use it to convert to cortisol and not the fertility areas where its being needed… vicious cycle! So her advice to me was to go off gluten completely. and to not stress! don’t put your body into fight or flight! If your tired (physically or emotionally) go lay down! listen to your body and don’t over work your adrenals!
I am so incredibly happy to finally know and understand WHY Gluten was so “bad”! I will be going off of ALL grain for about a month, and then I will introduce them one at a time and see how I react and what my digestive system says yes to and what it says no to! I will also be keeping a “journal” on what I eat and how it makes me feel, and what it does to me.
If you are interested here are a few sites that I have found helpful for the adrenal health topic. and
wish me luck on my new adventure and journey to new and better things for my health and for generations to come!

My Apologies

Hello Hello,
I give my deepest apologies for not writing a blog for a very long time! Here’s the story! I had planned on writing… Then my computer died! like totally completely died! The diagnosis was a fried mother board! (aka DEAD!) Thank goodness (times a million) that my Moms awesome computer guy was able to get pictures off of it for me!! (thanks Jason!) So that put a time damper on not writing! The next part of the story is that I have just been a little overwhelmed lately! I am taking a class on Monday nights, but since I am 200 miles away from anything I end up being gone all day Monday! so that totally shortens my week! I also have had my nephew living with me for about a month now, and we’ve been getting into the hang of things with his school work (homeschool) and everything. We also have been finishing up a room for him (we ran into some difficulties with sheetrock and a leaking roof!) SO…. now that I am coming to some sort of organization I was able to work in the yard and bake bread today! (yum it was spelt bread) 🙂 So feel free to get after me if I don’t keep up at my writing/blogging goal! I am going to try for once a week again… I am getting used to using wordpress but I will figure everything out and start navigating and reading others blogs more and all those lovely thigns! 🙂
well… I’m done.. over and out!

Sisters Are Like Stars


Sisters are like stars, you cant always see them, but you know they are there! 

For one of my birthdays 9 or 10 years ago, my sister Teresa gave me a paper with that quote printed on it and some fun bright colored stars and shooting stars.  I didn’t know then how much that paper would mean to me in 10 years!  it is now framed hanging in my hallway.  Some day I also want that quote that says because we have part of our family in heaven we have part of heaven in our home!  That is where Teresa is… in heaven, looking after me, my other sisters, my brothers, her children, and her family!

I used to hear “old folks” say things like “I remember exactly what I was doing and where I was when…(insert some major world event)”  for some reason I just didn’t understand how and why they would remember that!  Well then I had major things happen to me! (or in my life)  Like my sister dying.  (my dad and grandma in the two consecutive years).   And guess what?  I can replay that day like it was yesterday!!  I realize now what those “old folks” went through and how and why they remembered exactly what happened and where they were! 

Teresa left this world physically 8 years ago.  She is still here!  She is with her oldest daughter as she experiences life as a wife and mother!  She is holding her second daughters hand as she learns what road to walk down and while she goes through a time in life that is hard for everyone!  She is with her son as he grows up and becomes a man, a strength, to his family!  And she is holding her youngest daughter, although she remembers very little of her mom, as she grows up and becomes a young woman!

And she was with me today pushing me to step outside my comfort zone!  she is there when I need someone to talk to, and there when I need some strength, and someone to lean on!

I have no doubt that she is and will always be around helping and serving us where ever we need it! 


I miss you so much!  sometimes I wonder how life has gone on with out you! then I realize it hasn’t! you’re still here!  I can still tell you all about my hopes and dreams and wishes!  and you still believe in me like you have my entire life!!  I love you!!!!




An example

I have been a slacker and haven’t written a blog in a couple of weeks!! My goal was weekly… But sometimes I suppose life gets in the way!

In my last post I write about some of my fertility issues… Well I am one of many with similar issues! And I am one of three in my 5 sisters! I have been strengthen, supported, loved, encouraged, and blessed by those two said sisters! I have many many people who have helped me along this road. I tell my husband semi regularly about how I am amazed at the love and blessings people show me! I am very grateful!!

Today however I want to focus on one! One very special woman who is stronger than she gives herself credit for! One who gives love! One who strengthens, supports, loves and gives without recognizing it, or taking credit for it! She is my sister!

Today is a very special day for her. Four years ago she lost her little baby girl!

After years of trying to conceive she finally did it!! We were all so happy! Like beyond description happy! About half way through her pregnancy she found out of some problems with her sweet baby. At first it was just thought that there were going to be some handicaps and health concerns… I remember telling my sister once: “God gives special babies to special mommies”! (Ok so I tried telling her! It was a pretty tearful moment) but by that I meant that God doesn’t make mistakes and if He brought her to a trial He would help her through it, and he knew she was strong to be able to bear such a burden! So after a few more dr appointments and tests. She found out the baby (who we also found was a girl) was not going to survive much longer. For the last few weeks of her shortened pregnancy she listened to her heart beat, felt her movements. She loved listening to her 15 year old sister would play the piano.

The heartbeat could no longer be heard, sweet angel Taliah was with auntT and grandpa again.

I have sort of a tradition that I have made all, or most of, my nieces and nephews a baby blanket when they are born! I had some super cute fabric that’s wanted to use I was so excited to make the blanket! I hadn’t made it yet when this all was happening. And I was at work one day and my sister texted me and said she still wanted me to make her the blanket! (I had some pretty funny looks when I was crying as coming out of the bathroom at work!) after using the blanket for a few days at the hospital and mortuary it was made into a little teddy bear for my sister and her family! Holding my little niece taliah in the blanket I made for her (mostly only feeling the blanket because she was so tiny!) was one of the sweetest moments in my life!!!! I haven’t ever thanked my sister for that opportunity! It is going on top of my to do list!

In the midst of her trials my sister still loved strengthened and gave hope to those around her and to me!! She has and will always be an example to me!

A few years later she conceived and had her 100% all boy, smarty, cutie, lovey! Little Connor James!


Here he is playing with an old pair of my glasses!

I am so proud of my sister and what she as accomplished and gone through in her life!! She is an amazing mother to her 17 year old daughter and almost 2 year old Connor! She is an awesome sister, such a blessing in my life!

I cannot fathom life with out family!!!